Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
MISSING MY BEST FRIEND MY MOTHER.
I miss my best friend that I have every had we have been friends all of my life, you see she is my mother, and we were best friends. She is still living and no we did not have a falling out nothing that silly because I can not think of anything being so sill as not to be friends with ones mother!
No My mother have dementia, and we know what that will lead to eventually, I call he now some times and she forgets that we have talked together the next day. We once had such a good time together raising our children together helping each other through rough and good times talked about every thing under the sun. Laugh and cried together. We were very close now I am left along and quite true fully I am not sure how long I can stand steady in this life with out her. She looks the same but I know and she knows. I want to bring her home with me but I'm not the only child that she have and another reason she want to remain in her own home so until that is impossible for her to do I must leave her where she is.
Oh but how I love her and she is being robbed of who she once was by a disease that seems to be unstoppable I prey that soon there will become a cure for Alzheimer, so no other daughter or son or mother will ever have to watch a love one designate before their eye knowing that they are all ready gone just still breathing it takes away memory and the indignant from them, they become shells of themselves.
I often time wonder if it would be better if she had died leaving us but not this way but with dignity and awareness of self. It is as if I have nobody to talk to about how I feel about my mom. Most don't want to even call her others I have to remind and then they don't. My God some times I pray that you would just take her and then maybe thing will not be so hard on her or me. There are family matters that I don't want to get into but after she is gone I am finished. It hurts to write these thing but I thought if I just said them out loud if I just had some one to talk to maybe I would not have to write these these things down. A lot of thing in my life have hurt me but this is the worst pain that I have ever had to bear.
Each time that I talk with her she never forget to ask me about the family, how is this one and how is that one. She have her good day and her bad one but I guess that is the way it works, some times she acts the same way I remember her being when we would cook our holiday dinners together put up kids toys with tools we weren't use to using but learned to do so. I think of all the times we would call each other and talk for hours now when I call her she talks for a while and soon say by. My God some time I pray why her she is such a good mother and friend to have why her. This is not the end but I must say so long as she would say to me before she began to forget because she said good by was to final but so lone meant we would see each other again.
By: Marie Russell
No My mother have dementia, and we know what that will lead to eventually, I call he now some times and she forgets that we have talked together the next day. We once had such a good time together raising our children together helping each other through rough and good times talked about every thing under the sun. Laugh and cried together. We were very close now I am left along and quite true fully I am not sure how long I can stand steady in this life with out her. She looks the same but I know and she knows. I want to bring her home with me but I'm not the only child that she have and another reason she want to remain in her own home so until that is impossible for her to do I must leave her where she is.
Oh but how I love her and she is being robbed of who she once was by a disease that seems to be unstoppable I prey that soon there will become a cure for Alzheimer, so no other daughter or son or mother will ever have to watch a love one designate before their eye knowing that they are all ready gone just still breathing it takes away memory and the indignant from them, they become shells of themselves.
I often time wonder if it would be better if she had died leaving us but not this way but with dignity and awareness of self. It is as if I have nobody to talk to about how I feel about my mom. Most don't want to even call her others I have to remind and then they don't. My God some times I pray that you would just take her and then maybe thing will not be so hard on her or me. There are family matters that I don't want to get into but after she is gone I am finished. It hurts to write these thing but I thought if I just said them out loud if I just had some one to talk to maybe I would not have to write these these things down. A lot of thing in my life have hurt me but this is the worst pain that I have ever had to bear.
Each time that I talk with her she never forget to ask me about the family, how is this one and how is that one. She have her good day and her bad one but I guess that is the way it works, some times she acts the same way I remember her being when we would cook our holiday dinners together put up kids toys with tools we weren't use to using but learned to do so. I think of all the times we would call each other and talk for hours now when I call her she talks for a while and soon say by. My God some time I pray why her she is such a good mother and friend to have why her. This is not the end but I must say so long as she would say to me before she began to forget because she said good by was to final but so lone meant we would see each other again.
By: Marie Russell
Friday, May 20, 2011
IN THE NEWS TODAY!
Today, all the buzz is about the Marriage of Maria S. and Arnold S. the question is this why do men of that is famous cheat, giving them the monopolizer of cheating on their wives, I would not give them credit of just because of their position that they cheats it happens every day in every day lives, men and women cheat on each other of course if one life is not that of recognition nobody know about it except for the friends and families of those couples. To say that the Famous men are cheater is wrong, who do you know gets in the news if he or she is not famous, but do that meant that the other world out side of famous do not do the same things, of course they do. I can only speak for myself, Arnold and Maria's problem is not unique it is just that they carries famous names.
Today the buzz is also about the Rapture (The End Time) now this prompted me to go back to my Bible to read up on this in my research of the NIV Bible Matthews Chapter 24 Verse 4-5, TITLE The Day and Hour Unknown. Before we get into this let it be know that I will not laugh nor will I Believe this but in truth, this has been warred "Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming" 'I am the Christ, and will Deceive many, Verses 36-38, "No one Knows about that day or hour, not the Angels in heaven, or the Son, but only the Father. As it was in the days of Noah, it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man."
So I am incline not to believe this Radio Evangelist. There will all way be roomers of all kinds of things happening but the Bible warrens us I to keep on the watch for ourselves. No I will not pole fun at this man but will prey in kind, should we be so inclined to believe him we may be lost to the world. It is also written that it will not be by will or might that one will be saved but by the Grace of God, so it will make no difference if you prey all of the time or attend a certain organizational church or prey at home, it depends up on the Grace of God as to if your heart is clean enough to enter his kingdom. Stop believing what man says with out it being written, if he was going to allow man to figure it out by math he would have given something to go on. It is written your thought are not my thoughts. he will do the judgement.
Today the buzz is also about the Rapture (The End Time) now this prompted me to go back to my Bible to read up on this in my research of the NIV Bible Matthews Chapter 24 Verse 4-5, TITLE The Day and Hour Unknown. Before we get into this let it be know that I will not laugh nor will I Believe this but in truth, this has been warred "Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming" 'I am the Christ, and will Deceive many, Verses 36-38, "No one Knows about that day or hour, not the Angels in heaven, or the Son, but only the Father. As it was in the days of Noah, it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man."
So I am incline not to believe this Radio Evangelist. There will all way be roomers of all kinds of things happening but the Bible warrens us I to keep on the watch for ourselves. No I will not pole fun at this man but will prey in kind, should we be so inclined to believe him we may be lost to the world. It is also written that it will not be by will or might that one will be saved but by the Grace of God, so it will make no difference if you prey all of the time or attend a certain organizational church or prey at home, it depends up on the Grace of God as to if your heart is clean enough to enter his kingdom. Stop believing what man says with out it being written, if he was going to allow man to figure it out by math he would have given something to go on. It is written your thought are not my thoughts. he will do the judgement.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Blacks In the News!
As much as the dedication of Blacks, neighborhoods, one would think that the people discussed each year would get it. But when are other going to stop lumping everybody in the same old cotton clothe sort of speak, for instance we are not all ignorant or closed in we all have come into contact with others in our society most of are not "well traveled", but are thankful that they are able to read. This Sunday will kick off a segment of programs, geared towards Blacks In America. Before they do that lets go to some of those neighborhoods and find what is their first find out what makes some Blacks tick, (The words Black America Hispanic American and of course White American etc, etc etc....American) These words and description here is a division, in people but only one that was perfectly mention is where some think of themselves as superior and of course have the answers to everybody problems. I'll save this for another day to discuss. today lets began with how to help Black America, but first lets look at how they became from. One sure fired thing I can assure you of is that they did not take that beautiful ride to freedom by booking a ticket on the most famous Mayflower Ship headed to the New Colonies, Blacks was not one of them but I can tell you this also that most of them that was there not all came of their own free will either.
To keep a people down in today's America requires some smart thinking on their part of the Americas. But get it done they have, half of our young Black men and women are in prison or one their way in prison. Back in the Late sixties, when I became away of how our young was going astray with drugs and not understand why so much drugs was flushing and flooding our neighborhoods, until it just made me sick, not know what to do. I was the School Parent Council President, and it was job to get parent out for meetings, and invite guess speakers I came up with the ideal of inviting someone from the police department in charge of the special unit for illegal drugs, he answered questions and brought along films showing what drugs was doing to our children, the film was so drastic it kept me away for a long time after seeing them. To this day I can remember my questions that I ask him, "Are our black Kids the only one who go to prison or jail for doing drugs"? His answer shocked me, when he said no the confusion on my face and mind prompted him to say but yours are the only one to go to prison or on the television. In the Suburbs he said, we arrest them but records come up missing or the case never get to court, why I ask once again his answer was surprising to me. He said your children do not live next door to a judge or go to school with one or a police chief officer. You don't have rich people to look out for you money can buy mostly anything he said. Dumb founded, now before some one give me those few rich people that have gone to jail, spare me the trouble of pointing out that not all who have not darken prisons or jails doors are innocent they have enough money to get out of things and they are never mention again.
If our children are going to have a fair chance at becoming a part of this society the adults in the family must start now teaching and paying attention to their children and that includes that teenage daughter who just gave birth to a baby, now she things no school. Explaining to her before she gets comfortable that the first is a mistake and you will help with that one as long as she stay in school, but the second and so on is an intent and you don't plan on spending the rest of you life cleaning up behind her. Mean it young men should have a certain time that he should be in the house giving choice is not a bad ideal a slap on the rear do not harm or hurt ones chances at life or make one an abouser, abouse is taught but not all of the time some people are going to be that any way. Blacks needs to start pulling the string where their children are concer teaching such as you have one thing that can be an asscet to you and that is your words. Showing them the way of life instead of listing to them tell you children have not experience life, it is up to the adults to make sure that they really know what and who their children are, keeping up with who their friends are, did they do their home work and no outside activity on school nights and if no school instead of going out pick up a book and do some extra, it is not dumb to be smart.
Black have gone backward as far as rearing children are concern and it started within my generation, where it will end if we don't start to take back our childrens from all the things that have taken them away from us. We are responsible for giving them hope now is that time or our society will be left behind, money is a big help that I will admit to but more love and attention will wind over that. I know because where other saw us (my family and me) as being poor I did not see it. Back then there were no designers clothing we all wore the same, we all lived in the same place, our parent looked out for the neighbors child until the return home from work or taking care of some business.
To keep a people down in today's America requires some smart thinking on their part of the Americas. But get it done they have, half of our young Black men and women are in prison or one their way in prison. Back in the Late sixties, when I became away of how our young was going astray with drugs and not understand why so much drugs was flushing and flooding our neighborhoods, until it just made me sick, not know what to do. I was the School Parent Council President, and it was job to get parent out for meetings, and invite guess speakers I came up with the ideal of inviting someone from the police department in charge of the special unit for illegal drugs, he answered questions and brought along films showing what drugs was doing to our children, the film was so drastic it kept me away for a long time after seeing them. To this day I can remember my questions that I ask him, "Are our black Kids the only one who go to prison or jail for doing drugs"? His answer shocked me, when he said no the confusion on my face and mind prompted him to say but yours are the only one to go to prison or on the television. In the Suburbs he said, we arrest them but records come up missing or the case never get to court, why I ask once again his answer was surprising to me. He said your children do not live next door to a judge or go to school with one or a police chief officer. You don't have rich people to look out for you money can buy mostly anything he said. Dumb founded, now before some one give me those few rich people that have gone to jail, spare me the trouble of pointing out that not all who have not darken prisons or jails doors are innocent they have enough money to get out of things and they are never mention again.
If our children are going to have a fair chance at becoming a part of this society the adults in the family must start now teaching and paying attention to their children and that includes that teenage daughter who just gave birth to a baby, now she things no school. Explaining to her before she gets comfortable that the first is a mistake and you will help with that one as long as she stay in school, but the second and so on is an intent and you don't plan on spending the rest of you life cleaning up behind her. Mean it young men should have a certain time that he should be in the house giving choice is not a bad ideal a slap on the rear do not harm or hurt ones chances at life or make one an abouser, abouse is taught but not all of the time some people are going to be that any way. Blacks needs to start pulling the string where their children are concer teaching such as you have one thing that can be an asscet to you and that is your words. Showing them the way of life instead of listing to them tell you children have not experience life, it is up to the adults to make sure that they really know what and who their children are, keeping up with who their friends are, did they do their home work and no outside activity on school nights and if no school instead of going out pick up a book and do some extra, it is not dumb to be smart.
Black have gone backward as far as rearing children are concern and it started within my generation, where it will end if we don't start to take back our childrens from all the things that have taken them away from us. We are responsible for giving them hope now is that time or our society will be left behind, money is a big help that I will admit to but more love and attention will wind over that. I know because where other saw us (my family and me) as being poor I did not see it. Back then there were no designers clothing we all wore the same, we all lived in the same place, our parent looked out for the neighbors child until the return home from work or taking care of some business.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
ARE WE THERE YET: CHASING THE PER SUITE OF HAPPINESS!
From child until adult, we all have been chasing after happiness, yet when and if it comes it is only in dribbles, never to stay if at all. But how can some one honest it, how can we as humans know what it is if we only gets glimpse and pieces of it. How do we know it is happiness if we don't have and understanding of what it is and how it makes us feel. Age old questions that I bet each of us have asked ourselves, many of times. Some thing that money is happiness others think that just being surrounded by things brings happiness, yet none of these makes any of us happy, what then can we do nothing.
The more one have the more one accumulates yet happiness escapes For one moment out of how many days of ones life we see a gimps of happiness.
There are all kinds of though on what would make one happy from owning to having or wellness.
We finely realizes that money could not buy that for us, because you look back and realize that person who had every thing never became happy did not live to see this day, so was it happiness that they accomplished, it all was for nothing happiness never came while here on earth. we know no matter how much we have or how many friends we have that someone who did not see today never spoke of happiness.
We realize that although we do not own anything that in the end of the day that do not make us happy either.
Happiness lives within and if only one would just open their eyes it is there for all to see. Happiness grows within it never dies, it go with us everywhere even to the graves happiness lives on in spirit and time. Those glimpse that we have been seeing are the things to come.
I believe in time for instance there is a time and a place for everything that we do on this earth, Time for every little thing that happens in ones live while on earth time counted, Everything In the beginning was done in time every hours minuet have a place. Why are we afraid of time, yes we are afraid of time ending. Revelation speaks of an end time in our Bible but the end time is when you no longer are here on earth.
Why are we so comfortable we all know we did not come to stay yet we don't want to leave. Remember time, well death to me is that time yes the body dies but the spiritual body lives on.
The more one have the more one accumulates yet happiness escapes For one moment out of how many days of ones life we see a gimps of happiness.
There are all kinds of though on what would make one happy from owning to having or wellness.
So will anybody ever have happiness, yes it is always with you those little fleeing moment, things said or done people that you remember fondly , and the days that you spent looking for happiness now you can laugh at how sill you were looking for something that you already had
We finely realizes that money could not buy that for us, because you look back and realize that person who had every thing never became happy did not live to see this day, so was it happiness that they accomplished, it all was for nothing happiness never came while here on earth. we know no matter how much we have or how many friends we have that someone who did not see today never spoke of happiness.
We realize that although we do not own anything that in the end of the day that do not make us happy either.
Happiness lives within and if only one would just open their eyes it is there for all to see. Happiness grows within it never dies, it go with us everywhere even to the graves happiness lives on in spirit and time. Those glimpse that we have been seeing are the things to come.
I believe in time for instance there is a time and a place for everything that we do on this earth, Time for every little thing that happens in ones live while on earth time counted, Everything In the beginning was done in time every hours minuet have a place. Why are we afraid of time, yes we are afraid of time ending. Revelation speaks of an end time in our Bible but the end time is when you no longer are here on earth.
Why are we so comfortable we all know we did not come to stay yet we don't want to leave. Remember time, well death to me is that time yes the body dies but the spiritual body lives on.
It goes to it's time, and since this time have been hard, for us to see what happiness is and when it will come the time that is coming will be filled with happiness because you will not have to look for it or think it is not for you because you can not see feel or hear it. Time will open eyes that was closed and we will be able to see it all. The Per Suite of Happiness, true happiness, will come up on our second life, spiritual life.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
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